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She’s so pretty though! I wish I saw her in more movies.
I wish people wouldn’t just see me as the Asian girl who beats everyone up, or the Asian girl with no emotion. People see Julia Roberts and Sandra Bullock in a romantic comedy, but not me. You add race to it, and it became, ‘Well she’s too Asian’, or ‘She’s too American’. I kind of got pushed out of both categories. It’s a very strange place to be. You’re not Asian enough and then you’re not American enough.
“In a tiny corner of western Poland a forest of about 400 pine trees grow with a 90 degree bend at the base of their trunks - all bent northward. Surrounded by a larger forest of straight growing pine trees this collection of curved trees, or “Crooked Forest,” is a mystery.”
them trees tryin to twerk
I had a really eye opening experience today.
Me and my friend were on our way home from a day spent with wonderful friends, laughter and great talks when we were driving down the freeway home, and noticed a motorcycle parked on the side of the road. We then noticed the man who was standing on the other side of the median, bracing himself as though he was getting ready to jump.
Right at that moment, he turned to us and met eyes with us and Erica and I keep remembering the look on his face. One of despair, sadness and hopelessness…
As soon as we saw him, our guys told us to call 911, so we did and were transferred to talk to highway patrol.
After 30-40 minutes after this incident, we called back to see if they had gotten there in time to stop him.
They told us he was fine.
But I keep wondering what happened, how he is, etc.
I felt so horrible about not pulling over and trying to help right then and there, but there was not way for me to get to the other side of the road or go back.
Anyway…the whole situation made me remember back to my days of feeling suicidal. Feeling that loneliness and hopelessness. That feeling that no one will understand. Yeah, they may have been through that, but you convince yourself that it’s not the same.
That no one will be able to help you.
And then I felt this overwhelming gratitude towards everyone who had helped me through that time of feeling that way. My family, my close friends, etc. those people who had stood by me and helped me even when if seemed hopeless and dark.
And I thought about what it would have been like for my family to go through losing their child.
Them losing someone so important to them…
I would have never met Jim; would have never adopted Echo and Toby, would have never met Erica, would have never gone through this crazy and exciting journey that I’ve been on for the last year or so.
None of that would have happened.
So, I guess I’m just trying to remind the people out there who feel so alone and empty, or feel like there’s nothing left for you, that there is.
There’s more. There’s so much more. Just wait. Live! Breathe! And try and enjoy every minute of what you have. Don’t throw yourself away. You’re life is worth so much more! You’re worth more than what society usually portrays.
I hate the way you refuse to shut up.
I hate the way you dump all of your problems on everyone else.
I hate, that you won’t leave me alone for five fucking minutes.
I hate your stupid hair cut and your dumb nose.
I hate your I’ll informed opinions.
And that you can’t quit acting like your…
Holy shit. I read this and was like, “Yeah. Yeah! Yes! Omfg yeah.” and then you read the last bit, and you just stop and think “Fuck…yeah…”
And then…wow…fuck. yeah.
It’s a weird, twisted hate that you’re convinced is aimed at someone other than yourself, but then when you find out that it’s aimed at the person who saying it, (them/you) then it all hits you like a ton of bricks.